Spending quality with her and I can't help but reflect how much I need her in my life. Her voice, her heartbeat has always been in the background, with every step, every journey and she's never left my side. I know I can always trust her, I know she won't let me down. She is a part of my life and that's where she will always be. I love her and she loves me...

When I'm sad, she lets me cry. If I need comforting, she soothes me. When I'm happy, she smiles with me. When I'm excited, she jumps for joy. She brings out the best in me, and sometimes, the worst. She can make me dance with all my heart, or make me sit around and do nothing...she makes every moment with her worthwhile...

She's been through so much herself. I've seen her change in so many ways since we first met, but she still knows how to touch my heart...how to move my soul...I've seen people take her to different places and different heights. I've seen her in all her glory and I've seen her at her worst. They've manipulated her in every way possible way, but it doesn't change the beauty i see in her. She's still the same to me...

I still long for how she use to be. I try to remember the first time her beauty crossed my thoughts...the first time her voice vibrated in my ears. In the end, as I have grown and changed in my own right, she will too. I will cherish how she was but I'm excited to see where she will go. I love her and all that she is...

As I continue my journey of life, i will hold her close and she will always be a part of it...

Music is life, music is soul.

Run for the Border

Last weekend was Bmod's annual Winter Retreat...unfortunately for me, I was sick so I was not able to join in the snowboarding, alcohol, and other shinigans that goes down at Winter Retreat. Instead I stayed home most of the weekend. It seems I was sick the whole month of Feb. Happy bday month to me indeed. I had two cases of the flu, a cold the rest of the time and a cough that didn't seem to want to go away. Yay! So instead of being out and about, I was inside and bored. But I was productive. I finally finished cleaning and rearranging my room. The turntables are set up(let's see if I actually start messing with them now)and I can walk around again without having to find places to step. However, spending Friday night and all of Saturday at home, was too much for me. So when Marco invited me to go on an SD run with Bert and Maja to get some Chamorro food, it was hard to resist. Armed with my roommate's Canon G10, we were off. (Side note: I think I've been bitten by the photography bug. Must invest in a nice camera).

It was a beautiful day for a drive. Most of the trip was spent listening to old school hip hop/r&b jams or listening to Maja and Marco play the "license plate game"



or making fun of the Bert because of the rainbow that followed him everywhere:



"you know how i know Bert is gay?"

Our first stop was, of course, Islander Grill to get some good ol' Chamorro food:





I get my usual: Combo#2 with BBQ Pork Ribs, Chicken Keleguen, and some Red Rice



After we were all done and satisfied from our meals, we decided to pay our friends at 5&A Dime a little visit. Before we left, Bert decided to leave his calling card:



who knows, maybe he'll get some gigs down there and we'll have more reason to come back and get some Chamorro food(San Diego is the only place in So. Cal to get Chamorro food unless you cook it yourself)

We headed to downtown San Diego and 5&A Dime:

















Chopped it up with the Gian of 5&A Dime. Seems like everyone is feeling the effects of the dipping economy. Sad times.

Said our "byes" to Gian and SD and set off for our trip home with a quick stop at Yogurtland. "Stay Classy San Diego..."

Irritation...

I haven't blogged in here in like forever...i need to get on track again. But right now I'm just too irritated. Sometimes I wonder, are some people just that blunt or that socially retarded? Are people really that oblivious to what they say?! All i can say is that I put my heart, sweat, tears and everything else into that same thing you call a "team" or maybe, even a "family." And for someone to make that kind of remark they did to not only me, but to someone else who put so much into that same thing, I honestly don't know how I walked away without throwing a nice fist to your face.

BTW...for people who always need to be the center of attention...GET OVER IT! The universe revolves around the sun...not you.

Sorry...rant off...

Lonely, but rich...haha!

So I came across this video on youtube:



It had me thinking. I haven't had a serious relationship in YEARS...I haven't really dated much either. There have been crushes here and there and a couple where I totally fell or was falling for the girl, but I always find myself getting stuck in the "just a friend" ladder. The, "I see you like a Kuya(older brother)" or the "I don't want to risk our friendship" situations. Yeah, it's probably my fault cause I like to get to know girls as friends first and I've never really been one to date a stranger. Anyway, back to my conclusion. I've come to the conclusion that if it's not in God's will that I do find someone, I pray that he atleast makes me rich. haha! Yeah, I probably sound greedy or have a face of money, but I really am not. I'm not greedy, but if I'm going to be lonely and have to suffer from that for the rest of my life, atleast let me be rich. Hahaha! It's better to be lonely and rich, than lonely and poor. Atleast if you're rich, you can do things that will, even momentarily, help you forget you're lonely. You can travel the world, meet new people(even in just a platonic manner) and do many things that will still make it feel like you lived an interesting, worthwhile life. Granted there may always be that void...but I guess it's just easier to deal with if you can afford to do things to help you forget about it. Yeah, I know there's people who have never gotten married or found someone to share their life with and never felt that loneliness and were perfectly fine. I know i'm not one of those people. haha! Heck, when I was 5 years old, I remember dreaming about having my own family. Who does that?! So if I'm meant to never find someone to share my life with, I'll be fine...just let me be rich please. =)

On another note: Bmod's recent performance at Avalon in Hollywood last Friday(Sept. 19, 2008)



Yeah, I messed up a couple of times and lost count. Oh well...OVER it. =P Time to get ready for the next performance...MAXT OUT!!

WAR!! What is it good for...

Absolutely nothing...except some cool tees. The homies from 5Star Army released their newest line over the weekend after having their release party on Friday at Highlands in Hollywood. Here are a couple of teasers:





Check out more pics on their blog: 5Star Army and contact them to cop you some tees. Be fresh when the new school year starts.

NO HOAX!

Just in case anyone thinks what I posted on my previous blog was a hoax:

Snopes: Brandon Rayner

Like I said in my previous blog, my friend Theresa informed me of this. She is a student nurse at the same hosiptal and actually sat on his bed and helped count some of the cards.

It's in the cards...

My friend, Theresa, who is going to school in Las Vegas to become a nurse, informed me of this 10 year old boy named Brandon Rayner that she had a chance to take care of in her pediatric rotation. Brandon has been diagnosed with leukemia and is currently undergoing chemotherapy and is hoping for a bone marrow transplant soon. While this may sadden many going through this ordeal, or stop others from living a normal life and doing things they love, Brandon has not let it stop him from following his dream: to own the Guinness Book of World Record's record for most business cards. According to my friend he is trying to collect 500,000 business cards before September 15th and when she left his room last night, he was up to 308,000. If anyone reading this would like to help out Brandon in his goal, please submit any business cards you may have to:

Brandon Rayner at Sunrise Children's Hospital
Attention: Pediatric Oncology
3186 S. Maryland Parkway
Las Vegas NV 89109

Please do not send duplicate cards. They can be from the same company but they must have different names. It's not too late, let's help this kid out.

Brandon and his mother, Joe:


Brandon and some of the cards he has received while at the hospital:


The story in Las Vegas Review Journal: Brandon's Story